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Labels: a moment of thought, Bayern, Me, ns, randomness, soccer
Okay so 2012 is 2+ hours away. It's going to be the year that we all die anyway. Fuck why MAYANS??? WHY???
Hey but there's a lot to look forward to.
2012 GB Olympics.
Euro 2012.
UEFA Champions League Final Munich.
Personally, It's going to be a year where I am academically well off. Financially not too bad since I managed to get those tuition assignments & AMP might call me back. Also building a nice reputation in SP with a chance to join SPOT (Whatever that is).
Looking back, 2011 has been a great year. From 6th Feb 2011 when I, SGT Muhd Shazly ORD from SCDF to getting into Singapore Poly (which I nearly cried) to meeting people that really made my day hellishly good. Thanks to my latest cousin Davin, my 1A/29 kids & noona, Veronica! I got to know what it's like to love & hate someone at the same time. To getting my fucking GPA of 4 (FUCKYEAH!!!!!). Not to mention being an adult! Awesome stuff really.
So now back to 2012, got a few thing that I want to do before I get blown away by tsunamis & stuff.
1)Get into SPOT
2)Hit my target of 50kg
3)GPA > 3.5
4)Pass my Financial Advisory exams
5)Get into DIT HOT or DBIT
6)Hook up with a girl (like damn despo sia)
7)Soccer!!!
8)Gonna be a tad more religious
9)Get a Vespa....(Challenge Accepted!)
10)Gotta be a good daddy for my kids =)
Lastly, make sure that I somehow be on better terms with my family. Not sure how to do that, but I refuse to let my nephews live in a world where they know their uncle as a close door.
Hey so cheers to the new year. 2012 had better be nicer!
Sunday, 24 July 2011
Labels: Me, something interesting, typical day
Me in prayer
Yes I am in a mosque
Lately I felt the need to pray in a mosque. Needed to feel closer to Allah. Maybe it's because I don't really have anyone to turn to around me. My family is well.....(no comments) & my classmates don't really have that maturity level to actually advice me. Plus they're my kids & I hate my kids worrying about me. My AMPiers are awesome really, but I rather not let them think of me badly.
It's been really pressurising these past few weeks. Got an A for my SMM proposal only for people to blame their poor showing on the teacher. That's practically insulting my damn effort? Not to mention I actually helped by giving an entire framework to help everyone with their proposals...
Ungrateful I guess? Or a moment of immaturity? No idea.
Not to mention the fact that EVERYONE has been looking for me to salvage their projects. It isn't easy troubleshooting dead projects. Plus teachers expect me to be the trend setter & set the highest standards for everyone to be awed at. FML really. I'm tired. Haven't slept soundly in 4 days because of slides. & I can't let my group mates do my slides because I'll end up screaming at the low quality of work done & do it myself. Plus they're beyond frightened & panicking with Java & SMM now. Felt I should take the heat for them.
& I got roasted big time.
My fear right now would be that I would let everyone down. Scary really. People are looking up to me & I know I can't let them down. Stressful situation now. Guess I have to show them my most mature side ever, especially for tomorrow's presentation.
Guess that's where Allah comes in.
In Him I find solace, inner peace & tranquillity. For I know that He shall listen to all my pains & agonies & miseries no matter how trivial they are.Such is the purpose of religion. That's why those who propose science to be the new religion are just stupid in my opinion. Both are completely different from one another & serve different purposes in my opinion.
Strangely enough I have rarely ask for Allah to help me. Instead I pray for the people around me. 1st it was praying she would be safe & happy with him. Then when she fell sick I was practically praying furiously for her health. Then when my class mates were struggling with their work, I prayed for the strength to aid them. When my friend's Dad fell ill, prayed again. I turn to Him whenever I'm in adversity.
So thank you Allah, for listening to my rants. You are truly a friend I guess.
My friend told me I should be more selfish. Should I? It really isn't in my nature...
I guess I should.
Thursday, 16 June 2011
Labels: a moment of thought, Me, poly, randomness, something interesting, typical day...maybe not haha
OK so last night in Singapore there was a lunar eclipse that was ruined by rain obviously. Pretty awesome night actually. I had presumed that the people from SP Astro were nerdy, un-cool etc. They are actually! Haha but they were an awesome bunch of people to be around with. Below were some random moments at 3-4 am at Mac's
& strangely enough, I've turned poetic!
Below were some I came up with :
"Oh She who towers above the rest,
Her strength match only by her will,
Like the thunder & lightning from the skies,
Her will shall descend from the heavens above.
Her divine punishment shall will itself,
upon those of wrong"
This was based on the one I wrote to describe Komamura Sajin's Bankai
"Your passion burns brightly as the flames of war.
Your kindness soothes like the gentle cooling waters.
Your dreams soar infinitely like the skies above.
Your beliefs stay firm like the earth beneath us.
Perfect girl. That's what you are. <3"
She. Described in 4 elements.
"Her skin white as Winter's snow.
Her voice as innocent a Spring's blossoms.
Her happiness as vibrant as Summer's warmth.
Her calmness as cool as Autumn's breeze.
She's perfect."
My personal favourite. Her in 4 seasons
"Unshakeable, stable loyalty. That's all I can offer you baby."
Quoted to describe Komamura's loyalty & mine.
Sudden outburst of philosophical moments. Nice really. & I really do mean every word I said above
<3
& It's absolutely nice to finally have someone whom I can have intellectual conversations with. Finally met someone my age who knows about quantum mechanics, String theory, Dark & anti matter, Time paradox etc. Refreshing really. Most people I know won;t understand a word I'm saying when I talk about these things & end up I'm mistaken for being an arrogant, know-it-all, show-off. Feels Nice to know there's a similar me out there.
=) Ciaos random passer by.
Tuesday, 7 June 2011
Plans for June
1) Finish Mathematics Assignment ASAP
2) Do at least 1/2 of the available MST papers for Mathematics
3) Master Java selection statements & loops
4) Get a freaking job!!!
5) By this Saturday, settle my passport!
6) Go rock-climbing!
& yeah, changed the blog skin again. Got complained that One Minute One Second was too dull. So here's something brighter....
& too my horror, Bayern Munich's releasing Miroslav Klose. WHY!!???!?!
Such a waste really....
& I find it impossible to stop saying "ok can". Yet to figure out why.
Plus it's even worse to become less childish & more vanilla! Just feel that I would become a hell more dull, arrogant, cold, cruel (generally not good really). Not something I'd like to show people in school!!!
& I've yet to find the new Bayern Red & Gold in Singapore!!! Patiently waiting!!
Auf Wiedersehen....
Tuesday, 17 May 2011
Labels: huh??, just a thought, Me
Grom in Death of Hellscream
Yeah these few days I've been rather angry really.Due to nonsensical essays to write, people ignoring me, the weather & basically my inability of achieving anything, yes I am pissed.
EssaysWhy on earth do I, a Digital Media student, need to write a marketing essay? & reflections about a class trip? Do I look like a secondary school kid? True my classmates have only JUST graduated from secondary school but come on???
PeoplePeople have been generally ignoring me. I hate it. End of story.
& I find some people who can't even bother to stay awake in SMM class fucking irritating. How Fucking rude are you. Think what you a King is it? Joey would agree with me totally.
WeatherSingapore is like a freaking oven these past few days...which is just plain irritating.
AchievementI had expected to have grasp the basic concepts of Java, Social Media Marketing, Information Technology & Maths. I have yet to properly understand the loop segments of Java, which caused me to do a mini explosion in class. Social Media Marketing is just ( ) to me. IT? With a teacher which doesn't explain what of earth are the technologies there? Who merely tells me MS-DOS etc.. & expects me to understand? & the only reason why I am a pro at Maths is because I already studied the topics.
Enough talk. Let this be finished!
Auf Wiedersehen....
Sunday, 19 December 2010
Labels: Bayern, Me, randomness
This is the biggest week yet.
Monday > Interview for Police
Tuesday > New graphics card
Wednesday > Another interview
Thursday > Christmas eve people
Friday > It explains the Blastoise Christmas theme
Plus applied for a few other jobs. Hoping for the best really. Really frightenend right now. All sorts of anxiety now. As Chandler would say, " Fear, anxiety & a whole lot of sweating!" Really hoping my luck would pull through here.
Bayern playing Stuttgart tonight. Hoping Van Gaal's men beat the crap out of them. & do it again in the Deutcher Cup a few days later.
Fingers crossed!!!
Happy holidays random passerby!
Friday, 3 December 2010
Labels: a moment of thought, korea, Me
Something I found at MTV. No matter how powerful humanity shall be, nature will always prevail.
& If anyone doubts my table's cleanliness, here it is. Please note the picture is of Gain noona. For inspiration purposes.
P.S. it's my birthday. THx for remembering guys!!!
Ciaos random passerby.
Saturday, 4 September 2010
Labels: Job well done, korea, Me
Finally finished the superbly & utterly stressful visit. Disappointed that some people tried to interfere & make their own judgments & forcing me to do damage control all night long. Irritating though.
Went out with the trojan gang yesterday. No one change despite the different vocations & all. Nice really to be accepted in a group of friends. (I haven't forgotten the god old JC days HAHA)
nothing much to say really...need to sleep more really. & plan for my future starting in 5 months time!
CIAOs ppl. Cya Next week!!
Sunday, 28 June 2009
Labels: just a thought, Lol, Me, something interesting
"YOU CAN'T BEAT HIM!!!"
Firstly, God should be really happy. He's got a personal entertainer right now. Ciao Black man who turned white. Your songs will live on for as long as humanity exists.
Ciao M. Jackson. Rest in Peace.
Friday was dismally disappointing. Me, Alex & Jasmine plus Jasmine's silent friend had dinner just because loads of 4E1 people suddenly said they couldn't make it. Disappointing really. Guess the class has really moved on.
Chilled out with my NS mates on Saturday. Left for Dead & movie. Megan Fox isn't that hot anymore. Such a rip-off. She's hotter in the first movie than in the second. & the Straits Times critic who gave Transformers Revenge of the Fallen 1/2 a star should quit his/her job. Optimus is plain awesome!! & so is the Concorde Decepticon.
But the movie so totally ended badly. Optimus, upgraded by Concorde dude, took down The Fallen. Thought Megatron would get himself upgraded by Starscream & take on Prime but in the end, they ran away. Wasted.
Starscream is such a weakling, which is disappointing. I expected more from the Decepticon's 2nd in command.
Saturday, 28 March 2009
Labels: f......, Me, pathetically stupid until I dun even know why i wrote it
I honestly wonder how many readers I have. Seems that only Justin tags my blog. Just one person. Makes me wonder if I'm a good person or not. If my "so-called-friends" are really my friends or are they just people I know & talk to occasionally.
Wonder if my so-called coldness ruins my relationships with others?
Wonder if my so-called coldness ruins any chance of being with someone?
Wonder if my so-called coldness ruins my personality?
Wonder if my so-called coldness ruins other people's lives?
I sound so fucking emotional at times. I honestly can't blame if people think I'm a girl or a bapok at times. Even the conversations I have with people are full of crap. Sometimes I hate my fucking life so much I wish I never existed. Life's so fucked up really.
149 contacts avaiable...just one to talk to. & even Justin can't be there always. Fuck I'm so attention-seeking at times.
Just so fucking retarded!
& I just wanted to say one last thing, I'm a fucking loser with a fucking emo-fuck blog with a fucking-shitty life & I know it.
CIAO.
& I apologise to people for the explicit usage of the f-word.
Friday, 18 July 2008
Labels: Me
Week's over finally. & what a week it has been. Thursday wasn't at all bad. Although I admit Geography lecture was a bore. But I found chemistry to be very insightful. & I so want soccer on Monday!
"Finally over"
I admit I miss not being busy on Fridays. I went back & seeing them, seeing that CCA really made my day. There was even this one scene where the CLs were behaving childishly & suddenly I had a flash back of those same CLs in Sec 1. Odd.
Time to study. Bye...
& I have no friggin idea what Gerard has to do with my post. Fuck it.
Saturday, 12 July 2008
Labels: Job well done, Me, saddest moments
I decided to officially blog about the investiture because I wanted to thank people. & apparently me, Luqman & Zul are the macho guys of council. OMFGLAH But thanks Tuhin for that brilliant speech!
& this is what the Third Students' Council of Innva JC is all about...
420 Days, 60 weeks, 15 of us, 10 events, 4 will remain in our hearts & One family
& this is funny..
"Mr President, read the sign man!"
To Tuhin,
Hello there my Indian Brother! Thanks for being one of the better presidents in IJC. Without you and your wit & ability to talk to teachers, many thing we wanted would not have happened. Thx for fighting for us.
To Jiayi,
Haha guess you are someone who always tries to save the day when Tuhin can't. Hard worker indeed. Been nice working with you Doraemon!
To XT,
nothing to say to my babygirl..coz words are not enough.
To Anthea,
THX FOR BEING OUR MUMMY. Always caring about our welfare & being our dance pro..mummy..hairstylist...artist..(many thingslah). & no more fetishes about malay boys ok!
To Baoren,
I want to smack his face. Dunno why. Now no more emails from him! Sad moment. THx for those emails =) & for stepping up o be our council spokesman.
I need to group people because I dun like typing
To Hajar & John,
Our brilliant comedians. Always bringing a smile upon our faces. Thx for those happy times people. & Thx John for P-E-R-S-I-A-N!
Simaa,Sarah and Luqman
It has been an enjoyable time working ith you guys, especially during O2 at the finale committee. Really nice working, & being goofy with you guys. Jiayos ok! & you guys really brightened up my day =)
Zul & Willy...
Hi Gay Boy. Hope you finally get it now(wonder if you know what I'm talking about. & Willy, must be positive. Thx guys for always flanking me whn I'm sad, for trying to cheer me up. ThX
Ham, thx for showing us the joy of donuts. Without you, I'll be even more lighter now. & i hope that you can always be happy, no more being lonely ok!
Michel, Huda, JF & Hakim...
WE'd never forget you guys. You'll never walk alone once you are part of the THIRD.
To Sam,
There were nice times & there were the sucky ones. Sorry for irrtating you like this...nothing to say really. I'll just remember the nice moments we had. Sammie & Shasha =)
& thanks to teachers who have guided us along the way. Specially mentions to Ms Yun & Mr Yip for boosting my morale. Mrs Naidu for teaching me how to adopt a kid!!! Mr How, Mr Cho for being our jokers. Mr Teo, Mr Chu & Ms Leong for showing us the way during Orientation. & Mr Lim for Prom Nite
Monday, 7 July 2008
Labels: f......, Me, NPCC, saddest moments
"Disappointed with myself"
I dedicate this post to a bunch of people who have stuck with me right to the end. Thanks to Dinah, Raj & Situ for trying to encourage me even after losing our second consecuive match tonight. Thanks to the Soccer people for just having this group.
Damn you Brandon aka Brenda for calling me a sissy! Senbonzakura Kageyoshi & pink is not THAT feminine.
& thank you Syahid & Jem. for trying to keep me occupied in school. I guess being with me has indeed make you all outsiders. Thank you.
The loneliness finally cracked today during soccer. It was totally painful to imagine. I just wanted to cry but there were no tears. The spirit of eternal dread & discord haunted me as Alex & I remembered the funny moments about 4E1 people like Yan Rui & John. Yes, there were nice, good people indeed.
I feel so useless in council. I know I've been an integral part of it but I've underachieved in it. & plus the sheer stupidity ruin wonderful friendships. How I wished that I had a way to warp the space-time continual & go back again. & it was such a regret to say goodbye to NPCC. Those kids always, always made my week.
My subjects are going downhill. I just can't to these H2s & H1s. I just want the pain to stop now. Regret filled my heart, knowing that SP was THE option to take in March 2008. I know I'll fail my A levels. I know that polytechnic was the way to go. & it was encouraging to know people were backing me up to go for it after JC.
Yes...today I'm rambling about myself.
Tuesday, 24 June 2008
& it's call the fatherly feeling...WHY AM I SO OLD?? DAMMIT AGAIN & I hope Lahm & co. slaughter Turkey tommorrow night. Actually 26 June at 2:35am Singapore time..HAHA!!
"German saviour Philip Lahm"
Right today's Day One of Prelims. & I must say it's been going horrendously wrong. Initially I could handle Maths. Then came question 3. Totally for that particular instant I forgot how to do it. Panicking now, I moved on. Here's the problem, when I panick...It all goes downhill. Econs was a big improvement. Handled Market Structure well but stumbled a bit for Macro Case Study.
I have the day off tommorrow, which will be devoted to revisiting Chemistry. I can't believe I didn't finish Organic Chemistry yet! Never mind then...Chem tommorrow after which it's full speed into Maths Stats & Geography. But I don't feel too worried about Geography nor Stats. Though NEED TO BRUSH UP ALOT!!!!!
& NOT PANICK!!! DAMMIT!!!
I dunno why but I realised that I have blogged for 5 consecutive days. I guess it's all the football going on. But seriously, I NEED to stop blogging like this. It's crazy really. Only crazy people do this sort of stuff.
Anyways read Bleach & this new manga..Absolute Boyfriend. Read one chapter..swore never to read it again. Such a masculine-degrading manga. Went back to Eyeshield & D Gray Man.
& someone made me laugh accidentally. It's been a long time since I laughed...
& I'm worried about a little girl who is sitting for her Os this year. Why won't she open up to us remains a mystery. I have no honest idea why am I so worried about her...
Monday, 10 December 2007
Unfortunately it's raining like mad in Sembawang & Ang Mo Kio. Means no soccer today. It hell better not rain while I'm on my way to school tommorrow. I despise the usage of the umbrella. I hate Rihanna. Xueting, very cute picture you sent me. The above hugging picture I mean. Bye.
" It's nice, getting hugged by someone you love "A quote I came up withBeen reflecting on my actions this past few days. I've tried helping a fellow councillor with his problem. & I honestly feel for him. The man is being blasted for no reason. & I've been an absolute asshole for a particular moment, on a particular day. I've been totally grilled by someone because of this. & just for the record, if I could, I would take it all back. But I'm no Hiro Nakamura & hence can't bend the spacetime continual. So the most I can do is say I'm sorry. & that's the fact of life. For further proof of my apology, please scroll down to "The Apology Post" or the one with many pictures
Veno once told me, " Council is a family." My reply," Utter rubbish." So many councillors, Sarah, Wilson, Samantha, Tuhin, Marcus, countless councillors have all told me that council is one big, happy family. & yet we are all ripped apart by our selfish greed & pride. We're either not happy with the exco or not happy with a particular councillor or we're having commitment issues or loyalty issues. So I, daringly post this question to any councillor who reads this part of my long, supposedly happy post, what the hell happen to that brilliant family?
Been reading alot these few days. Mostly factual books about lost civilisations & extraterrestrials. Atlantis & Lemuria sound like Gardens of Eden or some unbelivable paradise. It shudders to realise we, Homo Sapiens, could very well be one form of aliens on this planet. We are the remants of the most evolved homonoid species, Cro-Magnon which have no distict evolutionary origin & inhabit these lost civilisations. It's a scary possibility that even modern & yet skeptical scientists are considering.
I've tried baking yesterday. My cake actually exploded & began leaking cake mix. At least it turned out fine in the end. It looked something like the above picture except there's a pool of slightly burnt cake mix at the side. It's not a perfect chocolate cake, but the idea is there. At least I know I still can cook.
FC Bayern Munich drew 0-0. Bayern Captain Oliver Kahn dominated the Bayern Munich goal area while Frank Ribery, Miroslav Klose & latter Lukas Podolski went on a blitz against MSV Duisburg. But near misses, an out-of-sorts Luca Toni & some damn good Duisburg defending prevented the German Reds from winning. In the end, 0-0 would be enough, as long as Bayern are crown unofficially as the "Winter Champions".
Thursday, 1 November 2007
Here's the irony,
Why is my blog now implying about sex?
really now why?
Honestly why?
Anyways I'm sick,
seriously..literally sick
Been sick for 2 days straight now
since my funny OP yesterday
sick...
coughing...
burping??...really
Think I'm going to puke now
Owww sick again...
why??
& I'm glad...
Bayern won 3-1 in the League Cup
YAY!!
But now I'm sick!!!
& tommorrow's result day
sobs...could be my last day as a 0723B guy...
sobs..sick...BURP!!!
& I'm going to avoid her for as long as I can...
could mean I'm skipping meetings...
Going to puke now..bye...