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Sometimes I wonder why God borne me into a life of poverty.
Sometimes I wonder why God made me so weak.
Sometimes I wonder why God made me so nerdy.
Sometimes I wonder why God made me suffer so much in JC.
Sometimes I wonder why God made me see that RTA.
I wonder why is it I have to go through so much pain?
It was to make me who I am today.
I can never match the superior intellect of my classmate.
I can never equal their social standings.
I can never match their brilliance at programming.
I can never match my classmate's hard-workingness.
I can never match their physicality.
I can never match their positiveness.
I can never match her perfectness.
But no one can match my wisdom.
A few weeks back my good friend Alex told me that God made me suffer so much because he knew I could handle it. He said that I was strong enough to bear the pain. Not just the pain of myself, but of others as well. He said that it was these experiences that would make me a better person.
Another friend said that it was an honour to have know someone who would go so far to help those around him.
Yet another praised me for trying to uplift those around me academically without heeding the consequences of my actions.
In the end, I guess I am glad to have experience things I pray no one will ever find out.
You may lose your faith in us, but never lose faith in yourself. All I can offer is my wisdom & friendship. & know this, even in the darkest hour...when everyone has abandoned you....should you need someone to stand by you...should you need someone to defend you...should you need someone to take the bullet for you...
I stand ready...for that is who I am.
I will never lose faith in myself again.
Monday, 27 June 2011
Labels: Bayern, poly, randomness, soccer, typical day
Just watched Singapore U16s lost 4-3 on penalties to CR Flamengo. I never really expected the Singapore sides to last in the Lion City Cup. But having outwitted the likes of Everton, Newcastle & Juventus, there is hope for Singapore soccer I guess.
Thank you Cubs. You've don what the ASEAN Football winners of 2004 & 2007 couldn't do. Inspire an entire nation. Well done boys.
So apparently Thursday I had to go for a miserable IExperience visit with my class. It was absolutely hard to get classmates to RSVP to the DAMN Facebook event. But once that got settled, the visit was somewhat...
A WASTE OF MY DAMN TIME
1) Why talk about NBN when it's already being implemented?2) The make-up booth thing is completely unreal3) Internet TV? Try Laptop with Youtube/Mysoju etc.
But it was after the visit which became fun.
Poor Sean was being interrogated here by Xinkai, Zach, me, Davin, Afifah & Chiat about a chin matter
Us at the DNA-like bridge
En route to Esplanade
Step want parkour all
The damn wishing well that sucked all my $$$. FARKLAH CHEEBYE
Ok so maybe Thursday wasn't so bad after all. Friday was pivotal as I learnt what happens when you leave your notebook on with Zach & Gerrie around. Thanks for the birthday wishes everyone!
Meanwhile Saturday was great for one reason....
$99 well spent. Happiness right now.
OK MSTs tomorrow & I need sleep. Goodnight & Good luck guys. Auf Wiedersehen
Saturday, 18 June 2011
Labels: Bayern
So yesterday & today I spent my time in town with Justin hunting down my Bayern Red & Gold. Sadly it's not out yet in Singapore. Also Alex, Justin & his bro trained my like fcuk so that I could play centre back again this afternoon.
FYI played FIFA 11 today & kept beating the crap out of LFC.
& I just like to say this,
I am really sporty about being made fun of. I'm quite al-right with it actually. I mean, my friends at SCDF poked fun at my smell a bit. Though they knew where to draw the line really. Poking fun & insulting me are 2 completely different things. you crossed that line last night. You have no right to make a mockery of my feelings for her. You have no idea how much I love her (yes I can actually say that) & how it felt to be crushed by her. You got no idea how I felt seeing that Liverpool fucker put his arm around her. It hurts just as much as my 1st 'accidental' fire call. I know I shouldn't be jealous because she's not my girl & well, according to her they're just friends. But I simply don't trust that worthless douchebag.
I may have violent tendencies.
I may be sensitive (very actually)
I may be a farking arrogant fcuker.
I may be sinfully prideful.
I may get easily jealous.
Yeah may be absolutely farking flawed & maybe those are the reasons why she's not interested in me. But please, don't make fun of it.
It really hurts.
Ciaos random passerby....
Thursday, 16 June 2011
Labels: a moment of thought, Me, poly, randomness, something interesting, typical day...maybe not haha
OK so last night in Singapore there was a lunar eclipse that was ruined by rain obviously. Pretty awesome night actually. I had presumed that the people from SP Astro were nerdy, un-cool etc. They are actually! Haha but they were an awesome bunch of people to be around with. Below were some random moments at 3-4 am at Mac's
& strangely enough, I've turned poetic!
Below were some I came up with :
"Oh She who towers above the rest,
Her strength match only by her will,
Like the thunder & lightning from the skies,
Her will shall descend from the heavens above.
Her divine punishment shall will itself,
upon those of wrong"
This was based on the one I wrote to describe Komamura Sajin's Bankai
"Your passion burns brightly as the flames of war.
Your kindness soothes like the gentle cooling waters.
Your dreams soar infinitely like the skies above.
Your beliefs stay firm like the earth beneath us.
Perfect girl. That's what you are. <3"
She. Described in 4 elements.
"Her skin white as Winter's snow.
Her voice as innocent a Spring's blossoms.
Her happiness as vibrant as Summer's warmth.
Her calmness as cool as Autumn's breeze.
She's perfect."
My personal favourite. Her in 4 seasons
"Unshakeable, stable loyalty. That's all I can offer you baby."
Quoted to describe Komamura's loyalty & mine.
Sudden outburst of philosophical moments. Nice really. & I really do mean every word I said above
<3
& It's absolutely nice to finally have someone whom I can have intellectual conversations with. Finally met someone my age who knows about quantum mechanics, String theory, Dark & anti matter, Time paradox etc. Refreshing really. Most people I know won;t understand a word I'm saying when I talk about these things & end up I'm mistaken for being an arrogant, know-it-all, show-off. Feels Nice to know there's a similar me out there.
=) Ciaos random passer by.
Saturday, 11 June 2011
Labels: a moment of thought, Bayern
OK so this photo's way to old. But it was the same people anyway.
Met up with Kak Zainab, Lydia, Gary, Ah Teo & RC Lu for Fish & Co. + Starbucks session. Very grateful for Lydia's treat! HAHA Thanks. Spaghetti was a total rip off. THought Pomonoro actually meant something. Turns out it didn't
Chilled at Starbucks after that. Gary kept asking me to look for nice chicks as usual. Sadly the Starbucks girl I meet last year wasn't around. =( NOT THAT IT MATTERS since I'm already interested in someone else
<3!!!
& Bayern Munich are buying big time right now. Having let go of Miroslav Klose & Hamit Altintop, they're strengthening their sides with a few big names this time. Germany's no 1 Manuel Neuer signed already along with 2.Bundesliga's top striker Nils Petersen & Neuer's former team-mate Rafinha . Now they are aiming for Japan starlet Takashi Usami from Osaka, Arturo Vidal from Bayer Leverkusen & Man City's Jerome Boateng. Nice lineup really.
Neuer- Lahm,Van Buyten/Badstuber, Boateng, Rafinha - Robben, Vidal/Tymoshcuk, Schweinsteiger/Usami, Muller, Ribery - Gomez/Olic/Petersen
Not bad really. Definitely Champions League quality!
& my preparations for MST is going well. Very well actually. did 5/8 Math MSTs available. 1 done in class, 2 getting full score & 2 more having small careless mistakes. & somehow I figured out Boolean Algebra with relation to Set Theory. Sweetness. Back then in JC I was in the top 2 in class, from bottom of course. The teacher actually gave up on me. Well not this time! This time I'm going to avenge my misery in H2 Math!!! By outscoring everyone for MST!!!!!!
Jav's also ok actually. Found out I've been making silly mistakes which are costing me marks. Going to start on it next week...
& I'm really enjoying rock climbing, a lot! Got this one senior that is really explaining techniques & how to actually execute them. Pretty awesome really. Definitely going for competition soon!
"A Goodnight Beautiful text for her makes her smile before sleeping. A Good Morning Beautiful to her changes her day"
How I wish I had the privilege of saying this.
& Allah thinks it's amusing to make me dream about he for 4 nights in a row. You & I are going to have quite the chat when I get my ass up there!
Auf Wiedersehen random passer by!
Tuesday, 7 June 2011
Plans for June
1) Finish Mathematics Assignment ASAP
2) Do at least 1/2 of the available MST papers for Mathematics
3) Master Java selection statements & loops
4) Get a freaking job!!!
5) By this Saturday, settle my passport!
6) Go rock-climbing!
& yeah, changed the blog skin again. Got complained that One Minute One Second was too dull. So here's something brighter....
& too my horror, Bayern Munich's releasing Miroslav Klose. WHY!!???!?!
Such a waste really....
& I find it impossible to stop saying "ok can". Yet to figure out why.
Plus it's even worse to become less childish & more vanilla! Just feel that I would become a hell more dull, arrogant, cold, cruel (generally not good really). Not something I'd like to show people in school!!!
& I've yet to find the new Bayern Red & Gold in Singapore!!! Patiently waiting!!
Auf Wiedersehen....
Saturday, 4 June 2011
Labels: a moment of thought, poly, randomness, soccer
One on one vs Justin
Me trying out goalkicks
Justin...not sure what he's doing here
Poor Alex playing barefooted...hope the blister doesn't bother you too much.
SO yesterday was awesome really. Went to catch X-Men 1st class with Vincent, Joey & cat Yenting. Joey is totally in love with Professor X. (Expected). Then went randomming around at JP's Kiddy Palace.
Yes I love huge Teddy Bears...IT IS NO SIN!!!!
Today went over to visit one-eyed Justin. He's fine..Alhumdulilah! Just that he might drop PES. Be strong mate The ciao-ed for goalkeeper training. Thx boys for the stress release & not for the continuous poking fun at!!!
Had a serious chat with Alex about love & family. I thank you very much. Honestly I was really losing faith in Allah until you talked to me. Maybe I was wrong? I've been too sensitive lately with my sister. I should learn to give & take. & I should learn to think rationally. No way can my problems of this magnitude can ever be erased so easily. & I should make my viewpoint heard amongst my family members.
I know Allah made me go through all these hardships for a reason. From a useless father, domineering mother, ignorant sisters to JC nightmare to A Level misery to my NS horror. He knew I would survive each moment & I believe he has a plan for me.
Forgive me Allah for losing faith in you. Even if I never find anyone to love, I know that you will never stop loving me.
Thank you.
Thank you for the support man! I won't forget it.
& today I found out something horrifying....that people are put off by my childish-ness.
My heart really got shattered there. Reminded me of the moment Syahid told me in JC that 0723B alienates me because of my BO.
Completely devastated. It's not that I want to be childish...but if I really show my serious side, I'll kill you due to my dullness.
If I've offended anyone this way...listen I'm absolutely sorry for it....I am so sorry....I just didn't want people to think of me badly.
=(
"Sometimes the person who tries to keep everyone happy is the most lonely person."