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1st post for 2012. & SP's the theme.
Spent the whole week promoting DMIT from SP. Kinda disappointed that my AMP kids didn't come only to find out they went to NYP instead. ~Hais~
OH WELL!!!!
But somehow Open House was nice. Ended up helping out on all days even though I was on duty for just 2 days. Accompanying friends on duty while being nonsensical. Not to mention all the freaking XMMs....such a pedobear.
2012's been great. Soccer tomorrow. Hope I don't die then.
Auf Wiedersehen!
Friday, 23 December 2011
Been working at my DVDE design for about a week now. & it's finally done!!! & now it looks nothing like the picture. Posted it because it looks nice. But yes my theme is still FC Bayern.
& I got into SPOT interviews. Honestly I have no idea what the hell is SPOT, only that it's suppose to be a good thing. Hope it's no waste of time. Gotta work ( I have another tuition job now!! ) & study for my M5 exam & do my DBMS & ISEC assignments & code up my WCD assignment. & I'm suppose to fit in a CCA. Damn it why am I so useless at time management!!!
& I did a calculation about my protein intake just now. Found out I'm eating less than 1/2 of what I'm suppose to eat in the 1st place.
NOT COOL AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!
OK promised myself to get up tomorrow & eat my damn breakfast. Which I will. Exactly what time will I wake up remains an utter mystery though. & I have dinner plans at Al-Amin...cool story yo!
OK nights people!
Auf Wiedersehen.
Alles Gute.
Thursday, 1 December 2011
Labels: a moment of thought, Bayern, poly, randomness
OK I’m posting a picture of Gain for no reason at all. Just felt like it. Lame…
Anyway MSTs are next week. I’m pretty confident about acing DBMS. I have no hope for ISEC. I pray that I can get by NOS. DVDE & WCD are also done, which is a huge sigh of relief for me. Can’t wait to get this term over. Simply stressful.
& I need to find a damn job. ASAP…
Oh & here’s the nominees for the FIFA XI:Goalkeepers: Gianluigi Buffon(Italy, Juventus), Iker Casillas (Spain, Real Madrid), Manuel Neuer (Germany, Bayern Munich), Victor Valdes (Spain, Barcelona), Edwin van der Sar (Holland, retired, formerly Manchester United).
Defenders: Eric Abidal (France, Barcelona), Dani Alves (Brazil, Barcelona), Ricardo Carvalho(Portugal, Real Madrid), Ashley Cole (England, Chelsea), Patrice Evra (France, Manchester United), Rio Ferdinand (England, Manchester United), Vincent Kompany (Belgium, Manchester City), Philipp Lahm (Germany, Bayern Munich), Lucio (Brazil, Internazionale),David Luiz (Brazil, Chelsea), Maicon (Brazil, Internazionale), Marcelo (Brazil, Real Madrid),Alessandro Nesta (Italy, AC Milan), Pepe (Portugal, Real Madrid), Gerard Pique (Spain, Barcelona), Carles Puyol (Spain, Barcelona), Sergio Ramos (Spain, Real Madrid), Thiago Silva(Brazil, AC Milan), John Terry (England, Chelsea), Nemanja Vidic (Serbia, Manchester United).
Midfielders: Xabi Alonso (Spain, Real Madrid), Gareth Bale (Wales, Tottenham Hotspur),Sergio Busquets (Spain, Barcelona), Cesc Fabregas (Spain, Barcelona), Andres Iniesta(Spain, Barcelona), Kaka (Brazil, Real Madrid), Frank Lampard (England, Chelsea), Nani (Portugal, Manchester United), Mesut Ozil (Germany, Real Madrid), Andrea Pirlo (Italy, Juventus), Bastian Schweinsteiger (Germany, Bayern Munich), David Silva (Spain, Manchester City), Wesley Sneijder (Netherlands, Internazionale), Yaya Toure (Ivory Coast, Manchester City), Xavi (Spain, Barcelona).
Forwards: Lionel Messi (Argentina, Barcelona), Cristiano Ronaldo (Portugal, Real Madrid),Wayne Rooney (England, Manchester Utd), David Villa (Spain, Barcelona), Samuel Eto'o(Cameroon, Anzhi), Sergio Aguero (Argentina, Manchester City), Neymar (Brazil, Santos),Didier Drogba (Ivory Coast, Chelsea), Zlatan Ibrahimovic (Sweden, AC Milan), Luis Suarez(Uruguay, Liverpool), Radamel Falcao (Colombia, Atletico Madrid), Edinson Cavani (Uruguay, Napoli), Karim Benzema (France, Real Madrid), Mario Gomez (Germany, Bayern Munich), Robin van Persie (Holland, Arsenal)
YAY Bayern has 4 dudes in there. Totally deserved really.
Hoping to impress for MSTs. I WANT TO CHANGE COURSE. Siallah I cannot handle all the damn designing I have to do in year 2. Hoping for the best.
& no, I have not made ANY headway with her. She's like jumping from 1 guy to the next in some bloody "Get away from him(me)" game. I'm probably overreacting but still!!! It's annoying really.
& I found out she's been crying recently. & since she WILL not tell me anything, had to send my agents out for a little espionage (lame I know, humour me please). & they failed to get my info. Highly suspect she knows I'm behind this.
Damn it don't you know it hurts me seeing you sad or being bullied. & that it hurts that you no longer trust me. It seems clique,mushy, plain gay but you know I love you. Why do you keep running away.
Fucking despo sial. HAHA screw itlah. Birthday's on the 3rd. Wonder who remembers...HMM???
Auf Wiedersehen.
Friday, 28 October 2011
Labels: a moment of thought, poly
Apparently I used the title "Untitled" before. Must have been ages ago.
So yeah I'm still playing Pokemon. AS USUAL.
School's crappy at best. HTML is awesome while Database Management is a douche since I have no idea what the lecturer is droning about. NOS is slightly better. DVDE can go die. ISEC? HMMM. At least my kid-classmates are still entertaining as always =). Plus I get to bully the new class-rep.
& some teachers think I'm the class-rep still. Nevermind. 4 CCA points which I totally need!
& I love Gen Ed (teacher)
My last YEP tomorrow. Sad really. Gonna miss my kids. Hoping that they'll make it into Sec 5 & come to SP after that. Be a year 3 by then but still!!!
Nothing much except I've join Astro's Poly 50 team. Actually it was to train for IPPT but I don't really mind running for them. & I've applied for a job at a club. I'm going to hell for this but I don't really care.
It's been really awkward with you. I don't know why. Am I annoying you or something? Yeah the feelings never went away. Is that the problem? Cause you never seem to want to continue the conversation...
All I can say is sorry.
Auf Wiedersehen random passerby
Wednesday, 31 August 2011
Labels: Bleach, poly, randomness, typical day
Yes it's TOP from Big Bang. I just love the fact that he can pull off a pink suit. Genius.
I had a 5 min conversation with my sister just now. It really mean't a lot to me. Not to mention I visited my mum & 1st sister yesterday for Hari Raya. They were totally surprise by my arrival & the fact I've been praying recently. Religion is not one of my family's strongest points.
Nevertheless I'm glad I made the choice to answer the call of Allah. Proud really despite all the Islamaphobia. People should realise that Islam is no different from other religions. We all preach the same things anyway.
Saturday was awesome. Met up with Hilmi, Rizwan, small Fir, Farhan & his bro for iftar & DotA/Generals. Overnight too! Walk pass the Elections Building loads of times. Watched the Liverpool-Bolton match at some pub for free. Ate at some restaurant where Fir & the boss are like bros. Had intellectual conversations with Rizwan & Hilmi about my finances & this teacher from Japan. I still remember the question brought up by this wise man I should say;
"What are 3 things that cannot be moved in life?"
"A cow for its meat will taste different if it was reared in Tokyo rather than Okinawa"
"Wine for its taste will be affected by the different weather conditions"
"Your woman for she WILL change if you move her"
Absolute respect.
& I must thank Hilmi & Rizwan for the help with my study problems & what to do with it. & of course with my love crisis. I really must say, they truly tested my love for her with some hard, direct questions & criticism. Made me a better person. Thanks
Should I let go? Yes
Would I let go? No. & I have no damn regrets about it. She is the one who truly broke my heart & yet somehow this broken heart still loves her.
Rather moronic? Maybe?
The day will come when she finally realises who has always been there for her no matter what happens. Even with all my financial issues & my lack of family support, I would still provide her with the support she needs. I will earn the right to be loved by her one day. I will work for it if I have to.
Blind love really.
Fuck it I don't care. Years of being humiliated, tortured mentally & bullied have made me this way.
Today's interview was frightening. 3 deputy directors from my school. Sat down & practically told me what to do really. Have to thank them along with the nice kak at the counter along with my Personal Tutor for their support. I won't disappoint. 4.0!
& I got a fucking job! Not literally of course. Still nice feeling =)
& I'm seriously considering picking up boxing. Need to build up my ego a bit. Can't be small forever!
Lastly, it's Bulan Syawal. & i just like to say this to the mat rep. I am sorry. I don't really regret with my aggression & threats. You ought to know where I was coming from. & I know you're hurting badly right now (I assume so). So mintak maaf. If you ever need a wise old (3 years makes a whole of a difference, believe me) man to talk to, well you have my twitter & Facebook.
What is the point of being the better senior if he cannot raise his juniors to his level?
& who said old people were frail? Just ask the Old Man.
Ciaos people!
Friday, 26 August 2011
Labels: a moment of thought, Bayern, poly, UCL
& so I'm back.
Been battling away with exams for over a week now. Likely GPA is an estimated 3.6 to 4.0. Credible performance given the fact I'm back to studying after a 3 year hiatus & from a demoralising A level adventure. Likely results are:
SMM - C?
Maths - A. I'm not settling for any less
Java - A. Confident about it.
TCS - A.
IDis - I fucking hell better get a A for my 3K word report!
If I somehow impressed the teachers for my SMM exam, might just pull off an A for it. Otherwise I be contented with a C. No fails please!
Interview on Wednesday. Hopefully the Directors will be nice to me. Praying that I won't screw this up. Can't really turn to anyone else for help already.& my fees are calling me =(
S$1.2K???? OMFGLAH WHAT HAPPEN SIAL?
It seems weird that I'm totally comfortable with typing out all my woes here on the internet. Maybe it's because I don't really care anymore. Besides who on earth would bother about me? No one really cares about my existence anyways. & I'm strangely use to it already. All the emptiness, the loneliness, bitter disappointments & the humiliation. Just so use to it already.
Bayern Munich won. Beat Zurich & Hamburg. Now they're stuck in the Group of Death for the UEFA Champions League with English Citizens Man City, Yellow Submariners Villarreal CF & the Azzurri SSC Napoli. A real mess of a group that one.
I brought her to my workplace. Was the BEST day of my life ever. My boss told me I completely forgot the world when she was around. Even left my MP3 & hard-disk at the office! & I was totally cheered up when I had an entire conversation compared to the moronic 1-word-awkward-answers we been having. Though it scared me when my boss said she was beginning to be influenced negatively.
Intriguing really. Plus her new-found friends find joy in antagonising me. Should ignore it. Nothing but boys really. I have more important things to worry about. If I can't pay my fees, I'll have to say my byes to Poly life, including her...
Screwed up shit. Hope my PSEA still has money (which it should! Last check S$5K siol)
Ciaos my random passer bys. May you not be cursed with my luck.
Saturday, 16 July 2011
Labels: a moment of thought, poly, saddest moments
Yeah so last minute I decided to finally use the PT fund to belanja my kids, cousin, cat & OMMA pizza. After like months of figuring out how to do it, finally got the idea from Chris Tan. Must say, spending $197.60 in one afternoon is farking painful sia. Here were some pics:
Me with Afifah! Note I'm wearing a baju kurung. No shit.
My kids enjoying =)
My cousin very happy sia
Abang XK too happy until cannot swallow pizza properly
Seeing their happy faces really makes up for the heartache my wallet felt that day. Or at least slightly =). Hope you kids enjoyed it. I certainly did.
& on a more serious not;
Personally I don't really like you for all the annoying things you have been doing to me. & who says I am being nice for you? I am being nice because I never want to show my darkest side in front of the most important people in my life currently. My kids mean a lot to me, something you may not understand. My ideals may be foreign to someone who isn't mature enough to fully understand how to appreciate those around them.
Yeah I do talk down to people. But I only do so simply because I am superior(?) End of story. Cocky? Perhaps.
But if you can prove to be better than me, I'll gladly look up to you. Until then, you are in no position to make demands with me. You want buang me? You sure. You had better remember all the things I have done for this class. I could have been a selfish fucker & not help the rest. But I knew you guys really needed the help not just in academics, but also in their personal life. So I did offer everyone the olive branch should I have to.
But you take my kindness for granted & insult it? You are truly not worth my time.
Monday, 27 June 2011
Labels: Bayern, poly, randomness, soccer, typical day
Just watched Singapore U16s lost 4-3 on penalties to CR Flamengo. I never really expected the Singapore sides to last in the Lion City Cup. But having outwitted the likes of Everton, Newcastle & Juventus, there is hope for Singapore soccer I guess.
Thank you Cubs. You've don what the ASEAN Football winners of 2004 & 2007 couldn't do. Inspire an entire nation. Well done boys.
So apparently Thursday I had to go for a miserable IExperience visit with my class. It was absolutely hard to get classmates to RSVP to the DAMN Facebook event. But once that got settled, the visit was somewhat...
A WASTE OF MY DAMN TIME
1) Why talk about NBN when it's already being implemented?2) The make-up booth thing is completely unreal3) Internet TV? Try Laptop with Youtube/Mysoju etc.
But it was after the visit which became fun.
Poor Sean was being interrogated here by Xinkai, Zach, me, Davin, Afifah & Chiat about a chin matter
Us at the DNA-like bridge
En route to Esplanade
Step want parkour all
The damn wishing well that sucked all my $$$. FARKLAH CHEEBYE
Ok so maybe Thursday wasn't so bad after all. Friday was pivotal as I learnt what happens when you leave your notebook on with Zach & Gerrie around. Thanks for the birthday wishes everyone!
Meanwhile Saturday was great for one reason....
$99 well spent. Happiness right now.
OK MSTs tomorrow & I need sleep. Goodnight & Good luck guys. Auf Wiedersehen
Thursday, 16 June 2011
Labels: a moment of thought, Me, poly, randomness, something interesting, typical day...maybe not haha
OK so last night in Singapore there was a lunar eclipse that was ruined by rain obviously. Pretty awesome night actually. I had presumed that the people from SP Astro were nerdy, un-cool etc. They are actually! Haha but they were an awesome bunch of people to be around with. Below were some random moments at 3-4 am at Mac's
& strangely enough, I've turned poetic!
Below were some I came up with :
"Oh She who towers above the rest,
Her strength match only by her will,
Like the thunder & lightning from the skies,
Her will shall descend from the heavens above.
Her divine punishment shall will itself,
upon those of wrong"
This was based on the one I wrote to describe Komamura Sajin's Bankai
"Your passion burns brightly as the flames of war.
Your kindness soothes like the gentle cooling waters.
Your dreams soar infinitely like the skies above.
Your beliefs stay firm like the earth beneath us.
Perfect girl. That's what you are. <3"
She. Described in 4 elements.
"Her skin white as Winter's snow.
Her voice as innocent a Spring's blossoms.
Her happiness as vibrant as Summer's warmth.
Her calmness as cool as Autumn's breeze.
She's perfect."
My personal favourite. Her in 4 seasons
"Unshakeable, stable loyalty. That's all I can offer you baby."
Quoted to describe Komamura's loyalty & mine.
Sudden outburst of philosophical moments. Nice really. & I really do mean every word I said above
<3
& It's absolutely nice to finally have someone whom I can have intellectual conversations with. Finally met someone my age who knows about quantum mechanics, String theory, Dark & anti matter, Time paradox etc. Refreshing really. Most people I know won;t understand a word I'm saying when I talk about these things & end up I'm mistaken for being an arrogant, know-it-all, show-off. Feels Nice to know there's a similar me out there.
=) Ciaos random passer by.
Saturday, 4 June 2011
Labels: a moment of thought, poly, randomness, soccer
One on one vs Justin
Me trying out goalkicks
Justin...not sure what he's doing here
Poor Alex playing barefooted...hope the blister doesn't bother you too much.
SO yesterday was awesome really. Went to catch X-Men 1st class with Vincent, Joey & cat Yenting. Joey is totally in love with Professor X. (Expected). Then went randomming around at JP's Kiddy Palace.
Yes I love huge Teddy Bears...IT IS NO SIN!!!!
Today went over to visit one-eyed Justin. He's fine..Alhumdulilah! Just that he might drop PES. Be strong mate The ciao-ed for goalkeeper training. Thx boys for the stress release & not for the continuous poking fun at!!!
Had a serious chat with Alex about love & family. I thank you very much. Honestly I was really losing faith in Allah until you talked to me. Maybe I was wrong? I've been too sensitive lately with my sister. I should learn to give & take. & I should learn to think rationally. No way can my problems of this magnitude can ever be erased so easily. & I should make my viewpoint heard amongst my family members.
I know Allah made me go through all these hardships for a reason. From a useless father, domineering mother, ignorant sisters to JC nightmare to A Level misery to my NS horror. He knew I would survive each moment & I believe he has a plan for me.
Forgive me Allah for losing faith in you. Even if I never find anyone to love, I know that you will never stop loving me.
Thank you.
Thank you for the support man! I won't forget it.
& today I found out something horrifying....that people are put off by my childish-ness.
My heart really got shattered there. Reminded me of the moment Syahid told me in JC that 0723B alienates me because of my BO.
Completely devastated. It's not that I want to be childish...but if I really show my serious side, I'll kill you due to my dullness.
If I've offended anyone this way...listen I'm absolutely sorry for it....I am so sorry....I just didn't want people to think of me badly.
=(
"Sometimes the person who tries to keep everyone happy is the most lonely person."
Wednesday, 25 May 2011
Labels: a moment of thought, ns, poly, randomness, saddest moments
Tyreal, Archangel of Diablo
I'm deeply conflicted.
Seriously conflicted.
Unbelievably conflicted.
Someone has been bothering me lately. She's been absolutely unreasonable. She expects me to visit her every week. It's like I can't even have my own free time. I mean I'm already working on Saturdays & I delegate all my school work on Sunday. Why must I drop everything just to visit you? I outgrew you a long time ago. & now you come back demanding things to be your way? Why should I listen to you. You weren't there during the most pivotal moment in my life...
When will you just let it go?
& I really hate this feeling...
Reminds me of me & the kiwi. Nice moments we had. Pity nothing really happen. & history shall repeat itself? I wonder if I should do anything....
Rock-climbing was awesome really. Did the 15 deg slope & straight wall. Fell off the 75 deg one though. At least I tried!
& Thursday....
I really do miss my NSF days. Can't wait to go for Night training again. Meet up with my NS friends. Disturbing my Sir again...
If you were wondering, among all the NSF-Officer relationships, me & CPT Tan Y S was the closest. He was the only one who could reign me in & I really treated him like the father I never had.
I miss hanging out with people my age. THose guys & their madness. Can't wait for tomorrow!
& if you wondering why Tyreal?
I hope to see the light soon enough. Maybe Salam & co. can help me out.
=)
Ciaos random passer by....
Monday, 16 May 2011
Labels: poly, randomness
Been a hard 2 days really...
Working non-stop for 2 days, I'm really tired. Not to mention all the IDiscover, SMM, TCS, Math,Java homework to do.
Not forgetting certain duchess to entertain. Fcuking hell won't she get it that I hate going there...
AT least the Bundesliga's over. Match day 34 ended 2-1 for the Bayern side against Stuttgart. & Gomez finishes as top scorer! Well done man.
& I keep having this strange feeling all the time. I really miss her. I do. Arghh I really miss her. I really need to think about something else & get her out of my MIND!!!
Random picture of my SP life so far!!!
Right after DMIT BBQ...nothing better to do...
My "wife" & I...I not looking at the camera by the way
The FIFA 11 boys!!
My class at FUSIONPOLIS
I have this say. this class is way too fun compared to my previous classes. The girls are so bullied by me & Vince, especially Yenting & Limei (my wife). & plus I have K-pop fans too!
Really they're the best I have so far. =)
Auf Wiedersehen
Saturday, 7 May 2011
Labels: a moment of thought, Bayern, korea, Lol, poly, randomness
Match day 33 in the Bundesliga & with 3rd firmly in their sights, I sincerely hope that Bayern Munich won't screw it up against St Pauli, the guaranteed relegated team. Hopefully with Robben & Luis Guztavo back in the line up, it would be a routine win for Die Roten.
& I can't wait for Diablo 3. Suppose to be very nice. Just mashed up Diablo, Mephisto & Baal in Diablo 2. Nice really.
& I'm starting to hate school. It's really irritating. With constant Java programming, an Idiscover lecturer who speaks in what I perceive as a foreign language as I know nothing about C-Panel ++ & whatever he speaks of. TCS & SMM are okay really. Math is surprisingly easy (OMG I can't believe I just typed that).
I rather not say anything about General Education.
Woke up at 2 today. Goes to show how tired I am...
& I'm still longing for her. Fcuk I'm being such a retard really.
& last week watched THOR!!. Heimdall is awesome really. Pity in the Nordic mythology he is the announcer of Ragnarök, Twilight of the Gods.
ARGHH DUNNO WHAT TO TYPE ALREADY!!!
& yes please check out EPIK High's new album, Pieces Part One. Umbrella ft. Younha is unbelievable.
Bye random passer by
Wednesday, 27 April 2011
Labels: a moment of thought, pathetically stupid until I dun even know why i wrote it, poly, randomness, saddest moments, UCL
Wow I don't really know why do I feel so emotional right now. Maybe it's because of all the pretentiousness in school. When will I find the day where I can just sit down somewhere in school & just read my books quietly? God knows really. With all the lessons all packed up together & mostly spending my breaks on FIFA 11 or with my classmates (which are hell a lot better than what I expected) I feared the worst really before coming to SP. Thought it was going to be yet another IJC despair for me really.
Then again it's only been 3 weeks after all.
& seeing you with another guy makes my heart rip apart really.
A#####
How I really love you.
(Sighs)
Why the fuck am I so emo right now????
& Schalke lost. As a German football fan, I'm disappointed with the Blues' performance. So much hype about their fortress-like Veltins Arena came up to nothing.
As a Bayern Munich fan however...
In your face!!!! Haha...
I need to get my head fixed up seriously. I don't like being so emotional. It's so attention-seeking really.
Unless subconsciously I do want attention. Odd really since I am like in the middle of the class really (guys at least, I hope!)
Arghh seeing her Facebook display picture with another guy really bums me out. I so need to get a life!!!
Bye random passer byes....
Thursday, 7 April 2011
Labels: a moment of thought, Bayern, poly
It's been like what....a whole month or so since my last entry? Too busy really to blog much. Studies & all. Life in general has become way too busy to blog. Wierdness really.
But since I have the time, I'm going to make the effort to blog something serious.
In recent days, there's been a whole war between a US pastor & well...practically every Muslim in wartorn Afghanistan & several other Muslim nations. Why? Because some pathetic, not-important idiot thinks it's a good idea to burn the Quran & label Islam as I quote, "A religion of violence."
Really now?
With the Crusades & all??? Both sides would be guilty right?
This is simply a case of an IDIOT, with nothing better to do, trying to pull off a publicity stunt(?), trying to antagonise people & giving Americans a bad name. Simple as that. I don't believe any American, or anyone for that matter, would do such a hopelessly redundant thing as burning the Quran. It's practically burning the Holy Bible Arab version right? Both holy books preach almost the same thing what? "Thou shall not kill" etc.
So this is my advice to you idiot pastor, don't kid yourself. The Pope in Vatican City doesn't try & burn the Quran, what right do you? If anything, shouldn't it be those soildiers battling away real!! Islamic radicals who should be burning books rather than someone who lives quite nicely in Texas? You're a fraud & I can't even believe you call yourself a servant of God.
No God, deity or Enlightened One would preach intolerance & insolence.
& seriously shave, mustache looks terrible.
& to all my Muslim brothers & sisters, let us exercise the true values of Islam, faith in our Allah, tolerance, compassion, understanding & non-violence. Let us not be blinded by rash, disgraceful & irresponsible acts.
Allah gave us this world & we all benefit from his grace. Bombing civillians would only insult Him for He not once told us to kill those non-believers of Islam. He created them did He not? Who are we to pass judgement on His creations?
Now I shall stop here. Coz I think I might sound radical-like & ISD might come after me or something.
Besides...too much religion talk...I got SP laptop, Bayern's dismalness & yet more life problems to worry about.
Bye Random passerby!